rachel writes in disjointed sentences which resembles a 9 year old's work. I am the daydreamer on your SBS rides- with my head knocking against window panes whenever the bus jerks. Irritating, I know. I write, draw, talk, sing and collect too much crap, and naturally am a great fan of jumble sales. I take "you look guai in school uniform" as a compliment, because I believe that this is greatly to my advantage. Snigger. It seems that little boys with dragon print shirts like to talk to me. However, you will find me shamelessy proclaiming my love for boys with weird hair. I want to be a genius in areas other than pretending to be one.
 
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Came home to not one, but two surprises! Surprise #1 is a package from my Laundro halloween swap partner! ;) I now have 3 neon coloured flower candles and a lovely handmade paper mache bowl and notebook. Hurray for DIY! Surprise #2 comes all the way from France. It's been more than a year since Pauline and I have written to each other, and I decided to 'rekindle' our friendship by writing to her last week. Anyway, she included a passport sized photo of herself! She looks really, really gorgeous ;) Its kind of pathetic that people look at me with surprise whenever I tell them that I'm helping out in election campaigns or in house activites or even attending training sessions. I have a reputation for being unenthusiastic, is that it? Buck up, Rachel. Oh yeah. How do you like the new simplistic look of my pita? Heh. Anyway, I might not be using so.upok anymore. I am much too lazy and definitely too fickle to mantain a proper website. But then again, I need a good host to upload my various images too. I shall talk to Sam, nicely this time. Aaah. The thought of tomorrow excites me.
Came home to not one, but two surprises! Surprise #1 is a package from my Laundro halloween swap partner! ;) I now have 3 neon coloured flower candles and two lovely handmade paper mache bowls and notebook. Hurray for DIY! Surprise #2 comes from Pauline. It's been more than a year since we have written, and I decided to 'rekindle' our friendship by writing to her last week. Anyway, she even sent me a passport sized photo of herself! She looks really gorgeous ;) I am going to meet Linda and some other Laundro girls tomorrow! Will pass Linda her lil package. Its nothing much, but yeah. Tomorrow however, excites me because Lydia, Pris and I will be on a special mission. Of some sort, anyway. This spells fun & trouble! ;) Its kind of pathetic that people look at me with surprise whenever I tell them that I'm helping out in election campaigns or in house activites or even attending training sessions. I have a reputation for that? If anything else, I'm left speechless.
Glennn is my childhood boyfriend!! Mwah mwah mwaaah. LOL. Ok, he just told me that he's gonna buy me a plane ticket to Gold Coast next year. And that I can be his prom date if I dared. But then again, its a joke! Drats. Stupid boy. Mm. I AM ON bimbo mode. Bye
Glenn is aweeesome!! :) He is sending me photos of his gymnastics competitions. The boy is almost as cute as he was 2 years ago. Ooola. When are we ever going to have that holiday we planned for? Just three of us, Jas, Glenn and I in Gold Coast. Man, that would be a blast! :) Today is a good day. Mm God answers prayers.. even when you don't deserve it. Thats all I have to say.
A secret agent is talking about cracked eggs and dead birds. Houses with blue hands touch me. Tell me this isn't it. Hold these things in position. Hold me in position won't you now. What happened to my thunderstorms? This is not complete. So what is it now? What did I do? I curse and I swear, I kick and I fight. Strike me with your punishments. But leave them alone, won't you? Won't you. Won't you. Why won't you
It is so late already. The air is stale and humid. Random computerized sounds seem to have a life of their own. Emotionless, however, is the silence of my breathing. My agent, secret agent, Won't you take me as I am?
I am so melodramatic its funny.
I found one of my old journals, it contains stuff from last year. Mm, I miss Seb muchly sometimes. Its just weird when you look back at things, and you never really know what went wrong. :) Its just one of those things in life, isn't it? You win some, you lose some. Its good, because, if anything, there's always the good memories.. What? Another thunderstorm? Mmm. This means sleep!!
21 out of 223 people on my ICQ list are online. Out of the 21, I'm talking to 2. Out of the 2, one is asking me to kill him. 1am, and its always the blue room and mine. I'll take a photo one day. In the middle of darkness, the bright blue room still shows signs of life. The guy that lives in there always walks around half naked. I hardly see him though, but when I do, he's always exercising. I'm not complaining though. It is, as always, a dreary night. Im always around suicidal people. I wonder.
AHHH. I AM AT SO.UPOK.NET! It's like, SO.UP ok.net, if you get it. but nevermind!
BIG thunderstorm heading our way!! I'm so scared I think I'll go hide under my blanket. Oh man.. whats happening?
Despite losing people along the way, what else has changed?? Does time pass so fast? I've thrown away so many things. The diarys and the journals.. and now I can't remember dates anymore. If I had my journal, I would be able to tell you what I was doing, what I was feeling on the 21st of October, 2000. But now I can't anymore. I can't remember numbers or months or days.. and now it is a huge mess. A big fat blob in my head, I can only think of the truth we held back then, and the tears afterwhich. No, it is not nostalgia, I have given up all hope.. I just can't understand
I have a strange feeling down in the gutters of my chest. Surging upwards, I feel myself succumbing to emotions that I cannot justify. Ok, I feel weird, and this isn't good. There really are strange noises in the sky.. Sounds like a gigantic vacuum cleaner. And I know its probably infantile of me to start thinking that destruction is only a second away.. but I can't help it. You know, I'm gonna start my catechism class soon. I don't want to and I can't afford to float aimlessly in life.. So yeah. I digress.. Theres all these twists and turns in life, the unpredictability of it all. Yet, there is so much more we have to learn.. so much more we have yet to experience. But while I'm here, right now.. what am I going to do? Who is with me, anyway.
Went out with Jas to watch Crazy/Beautiful. Man, I love that movie! It is a predictable, teenage love story, but thats what I'm a sucker for. Ha ha. Besides, there was pretty boy Jay Hernandez, with his curious round eyes and his sexy hair cut. Lol. I dunno, although I honestly thought the movie was super unrealistic and all, I couldn't help tearing, especially at the parts towards the end of the movie. Yay. Anyway, I like Nicole muchly... she makes pretty photo collages! Haha, and I love photo collages.. I have a pretty one I made a few months back :) Ha. I want to make one of my friends.. I need a camera. Blah. Oh dear. I didn't go to church today. I was supposed to do some stuff.. Ummm. UmmmmmmmmmMMM. Oh ohoh. I received my lipglosses from Spain ;) It isn't the kind of tube lipgloss though. Its those that come in a case. Not what I really wanted or expected, but I'm fine. It has red, pink, blue and glitter blue. But actully the pink and the blues all come out as transparent. LOL. Whatever. YAY!!!
I don't care how long it lasts, I'd rather not worry.. because I'm in a fantastic mood!! :) I had a great time yesterday, and last night. The sports carnival was a blast- even though my class didn't win anything. Grrrrr! I played hockey, even though I was supposed to be in Captains Ball. Mm, I sucked at Captains Ball, because everyone was either too fast or too tall. So anyway, I changed positions with Boonseer, which proved to be much better. My class hockey team managed to get into the semi-finals!! Which was quite good.. :) We played against Pris' team (3W), but lost a tragic 0-3. Bummer!! They were too good (I think).. Ooo well. You win some, you lose some, no? Oh and, 3W clinched the best class award! Woooohoo. I thought it was really fanastic, and I really felt happy for them! :) Yay. After that Pris came over.. to take a bath. Then we went to Fish & Co. It was my first time at Fish & Cos.. and I must say, its deeelicious. I shared a seafood platter (for one) with Pris. They have really big servings. Yummy. Uhh. We went down town after that, to window shop or something.. I can't remember. And here comes the fun part! If you go to Orchard now, you'll notice that the streets are decorated with holographic beam like things.. :) ANYWAY. There were like a hundred boxes of those stuff. Hahaaa. Lydia, Pris and I managed to kop quite a few! And we were like, so damn proud of ourselves because everyone was staring at us. Blah, bet they were jealous!! And after that, some people decided to copy us :P Losersssss. Lol. Ok, here comes the weird part. This construction worker came up to us, and told us that "Cannot takee!!" I was damn frightened! LOL So I dropped one of the beam thingy (I had two) back into the box, and RAAAAN. HAA. Damn lame lor. Cause like, I was the only one who was so scared and gave up one of my beamys. Now Lydia and Pris have 2, whereas I only have 1. Drats!! We ran really fast.. with the construction worker shouting from behind us. "Oi! Oi!" Or something to that extend anyway.. LOL. What an adventureee!! Oo we even planned what we wanted to be on Halloween.. before realizing that the 31st was on a Thursday. Ugggh. Oo I wanted to be a geisha! :) Blah. Mum wants me to for chinese tuition now! Right.
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Tuesday, October 30, 2001 » 11:37 p.m.