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Monday, March 31, 2003 12:07 p.m.
I might not be down with a terrible flu but I'm definitely starting to lose my memory! I forgot to bring my wallet with me this morning (and that's just one of the few things that I've forgotten in this week alone). As if that wasn't bad enough, I was at Tampines- penniless and stranded. My plans had to be scrapped and I had no other choice but to take a cab all the way home. What a lesson learnt, at a cost of nine bucks at that! So instead of scouting around for books, I'm back at square one- home sweet home. I really want to get all my books and notes and start studying like a proper, full fledged nerd would but alas, I can't bring myself to do as that.. despite that nagging feeling in me that I'm going to be lost when school starts. Okay, maybe I should go buy my books afterall. Hmm. I'm looking at my Fossil watch now. Haha! I LOVE it, I adore it! And more so because it was such a fantastic surprise from such a fantastic person, it was totally unbelievable! Bliss. I shouldn't start talking randomly about things, I know, but I can't help it. I'm too distracted.. I need to do something productive! I miss work! I think I haven't been doing proper work for approximately a month now. How gross is that!
Sunday, March 30, 2003 11:09 p.m.
Tonight washed all my birthday blues away. Seems like we've been going alfresco for special occasions so far but I enjoyed it nonetheless. Had dinner at Al Dante and strangely enough, Pasta Mania continues to tops our list for yummy pasta at a comparatively inexpensive rate! Al Dante has nice juicy, thin and crispy crusted pizzas though. Dinner is never complete without dessert and naturally, we found ourselves at Haagen Dazs. Delectable.. Vanilla, butterscotch and caramel makes one of the sweetest concoctions ever! We took a drive down to Alkaff Mansion afterwhich - just to look around since I've never been there. It reminded me of the beautiful garden parties in My Best Friend's Wedding and Meet Joe Black. Always wanted something similar for my wedding. Haha. If only it was cooler here- it would be perfect! Perfect for dancing to a jazz band playing in the background under a romantic, starry night. Shan't continue anymore, lest I get too carried away with my romantic notions and fantasies.. hah.
Friday, March 28, 2003 05:04 p.m.
You come on like a dream, peaches and cream
Lips like strawberry wine
You're sixteen, you're beautiful and you're mine
You're all ribbons and curls, ooh, what a girl
Eyes that sparkle and shine
You're sixteen, you're beautiful and you're mine
You're my baby, you're my pet
We fell in love on the night we met
You touched my hand, my heart went pop
Ooh, when we kissed I could not stop
You walked out of my dreams and into my arms
Now you're my angel divine
You're sixteen, you're beautiful and you're mine
I want to be sixteen forever!! Guess I'll never have someone singing this song to me. Ah well! I'm downloading oldies (and other feel good ballads) right now. So nice, so nostalgic! Thanks to music, I'm sodden in aphrodisiac today.
Thursday, March 27, 2003 12:44 p.m.
This is really upsetting. I'm getting quite paranoid over the whole SARS situation. Suddenly, getting infected doesn't seem too far away at all. The whole realization of it's severity has dawned upon me. Anyone could just die in a matter of weeks. Your family members, if they've been infected as well, which would generally be the case, would not even be able to be present at your funeral. You die alone, wrapped up in plastic and for those brave enough to take the risk and make it for your funeral, they would have to wear masks, in order to prevent them from contracting the disease. That's very depressing. I'm not even eager to have school closed for 10 whole days, since I've just barely settled in at school. It's strange how something so obscure, so unexplained can cause such an epidemic outbreak! Even with all our advancements in the medical field, we'll never escape the grasp of such infirmities and it's eventual consequence of death. With every new cure, every new invention to benefit mankind, comes yet another disease that continues to claim lives. It's depressing. Think I shall try to spend my time catching up on work though, although I'm not even sure where and how I should begin! I guess it beats sitting around and feeling all gloomy anyway.
Tuesday, March 25, 2003 04:01 p.m.
Ironically, I've been coming home from school much earlier than I did before. Of course, I expect that this will definitely change when lessons start in full swing. I'll probably be thrown into a vicious schedule of late afternoon classes and what not. Somehow, I will adapt and I will survive. Somehow. Moving on, the past two days of orientation has been pretty dull. It's probably just me of course, since I haven't been participating much in it's activities. This does not mean that I'm going to start being all apathetic about school again (on the contrary, I realized that I will have to be really proactive here more than anything else), I'm just orientating myself to the school in uh, unconventional ways. For example, leaving halfway during orientation to go to Breko's for a nice cosy chat and meal has proven to be a good start to getting myself aquainted with new friends, as well as getting a glimpse of the life and culture here. Fortunately, my OG members are a nice lot and I've got a really sweet buddy too. Everyone's pretty warm and friendly, so I don't feel as ostracised and alienated as what some people have warned me about. I pray that such a day will never come. Also, I guess I shouldn't feel too surprised that many of the people I've met today were either from GEP, triple science, council, prefectorial boards or running for council or the position of faculty captain. Obviously, I do not fall into any of the above categories. In fact, I've never been a prefect in my entire life! Okay, wait, I was the vice chairperson of my primary 4 class, although I suspect that that's nothing to be credited for. (just let me think it a little more significant that it actually is, please? haha!) Anyway, hope everything will go smoothly- I've already met some of my would be classmates and they do seem rather amicable.
Anyway, despite all this, I do miss AC. Don't think any class I'll ever be in can replace what 1AA3 was to me! Maybe that sounds a bit extreme but really, I can't imagine any other class having such a quirky and generally wonderful bunch of people! And really hilarious (read: occasionally even to the point of lame) at that. Speaking of which, my last performance at Red, Blue, Gold went pretty well. I was told that it was our best performance yet (if I remember right) because we didn't forget any lines. (or rather, I didn't screw up my lines this time!) So yeah, my only gripe was that we had to perform right before the dinner, so inevitably, our 'audience' was mostly busy catching up with their ex schoolmates, far to preoccupied to pay any attention to us, poor, unappreciated actors. No, I'm kidding, I don't blame them at all, it wasn't condusive for a proper performance in the first place. However, I did enjoy performing and as I went home that night, I couldn't help but wonder how my life would change now that I'm no longer a part of that school.
Friday, March 21, 2003 11:50 p.m.
Another one bites the dust!
Tuesday, March 18, 2003 11:49 a.m.
The headlines in today's papers are all very depressing. The imminent war, Iraqi child soldiers being brainwashed and desensitised to violence and even the pneumonia disease having affected more people on a worldwide scale. Scary, very scary news. What's happening to our world?
Monday, March 17, 2003 12:31 a.m.
I just spent close to an hour reading through almost all of my old entries. It's amazing, it truly is. It's amazing and wonderful to see how much, or how little everything has changed since then! I guess I don't always realize it but I can surely say that God definitely worked in my life, and very patiently at that! He gave me so much that I didn't deserve and I've been so richly blessed inspite of all my inadequacies. More than a year ago, I listed some of my dreams for the future. It amazed me to see that half of these dreams have already been fulfilled! I was so caught up with the realization of these dreams, that strangely enough, I had forgotten that I had wished for all these things not so long ago. How fantastic is that? My dreams came true, without me even being conscious of it! Just to chronicle more of my dreams, I really hope that I'll be able to go back to Europe some time again! I want to dance in the snow like before and wake up to the sight of snow capped mountains as a beautiful backdrop. I want to ski at the great Kline Matterhorn and breathe in all of God's beauty and majesty, so powerfully manifested in all His wonderous creations!
Something just sparked in me to type all that. Anyway, I think it's going to be a rather good week ahead! Oh yes, I'm also super delighted because on Saturday my friends came over to bake a potato pie! This particular potato pie is definitely not for the health conscious! What makes this dish so fantastic is the amount of cheese being layered and melted on it, as well as the potatoes and bacons too! The only downside of it was the lack of salt, thus it was slightly bland. But hey, it was pretty good for first timers! :) I can't wait for tomorrow either. Will be going down to Army Market again, although I just went there this afternoon! This time, I'm going there strapped with more cash. Haha. Nah, I'm just going to check out a couple of things I eyed today. And also, there's cheap pasta for lunch!
Friday, March 14, 2003 11:40 p.m.
Today is such a funny day. 'We have farting shoes!' I don't know why but that made me laugh so hard, I was practically bent over, squating at the corridor, laughing like there was no tomorrow. So unglam. I don't know why (again..) but tonight's Fish and Co dinner made me so incredibly full I was practically bursting.. at the seams! And I didn't even have lunch! Oh yes, this afternoon I tried to bake peanut butter chocolate chip cookies. It was an idiot proof recipe, it had less than 5 ingredients and about 4 short instructional steps. Yet, those cookies came out tasting rather.. queer. It's not the baker who's at fault, may I add! It's the recipe! Such recipes were fabricated in order to discourage would-be bakers from ever baking again! I will not fall prey to such incredulous traps! I don't know, am I really that hopeless at cooking and baking? My poor would-be husband, you had better learn a thing or two about cooking, you hear! Well. I may not be good at cooking but I definitely make it up in other areas! :) SO! Today really is such a crazy and hilarious day! When I first saw my cookies I totally laughed my head off! Such strange looking objects. Oh yes, the other funny incident of today was being the victim of a lousy pick up line! "Sorry to bother you but can we be friends?" I'm not Little Red Riding Hood, damnit! I don't make friends with absolute strangers! And balding ones at that! Anyway, the guy scribbled his handphone number on a scrap of paper for me. Be warned, his name is Michael and he's about twice my age! If anyone needs a companion to rough it out on a lonely night, I'll be glad to provide you with his number!
Tuesday, March 11, 2003 11:21 p.m.
How I have suddenly detached myself from school is an inexplicable affair. Detached, in both senses, physically and emotionally. Somewhere along the way, I lost that desire and spirit that once binded me to the school. I don't think I can justify myself any further than this. Ironically, I've been informed that my Neil Simon cast, namely the three of us who acted in The Defenceless Creature, are to perfom for our school's founder's night dinner. This comes as a delightful surprise and I am definitely thrilled to be given another opportunity to fulfill what was left out that day. At the same time, it is a bittersweet delight, for it will be the very last time I would be considered a member of that school, that very family I took shelter in for three months. It would be somewhat of a swan song, if you like.
On a very much lighter note, my mind is filled with thoughts of sun tanning at the beach! I can't wait for next week, I'm already prepared to soak up in the sun and emerge with a radiant glow from head to toe! :) I'm determined to enjoy myself fully before I'm thrown into a new school term and besides, with the unbearably hot weather these days, I might as well make full use of it!
Monday, March 10, 2003 10:32 p.m.
Whispers of sound seem to have amplified itself ten-fold; it's soft sigh intensifies, swelling with every molecule of emotion that forms and laces itself with my being. The vehement roar of traffic drones out into a whirr, murmuring its dull cry to my ears. The images in my world crumbles into a blurry mess, a mixture of movement and sound. The yellow halo of the street lights warm up an otherwise raw night, as it's glow casts soft semblances at our feet. Our minds drift beyond all matter, into an inexplicable, visionary state, where each sight and sound fades into oblivion and we are left to face ourselves in broken mirrors, our eyes staring straight into the unknown, boring holes into a glass of truth. We cry out in the most silent of manners, in a dimension so far from our reality.
Saturday, March 8, 2003 11:54 p.m.
This week has seen me at one of my most irrational state of minds. (and behaviours for that matter) I was as impulsive and as fitfull as the capricious weather that caused many to curse and swear throughout the week! By the way, the humidity was totally unbearable this week. I'm not one who enjoys perspiring like a dog when all I want to do is to walk to the nearest bus stop. Anyhow, I had a significantly different week from previous ones, not that it's anything worth mentioning. But therein lies the opportunity to rant and rave about my favourite topic, which is, nothing at all.
Much to my delight, I was exempted from school on Tuesday to return back to the nunnery of a convent school so as to get my humantities teachers to write me my testimonials. We spent close to four hours of travelling to and fro and being the bums we are, lazing around. Afterwhich, we trudged back to school empty handed. I decided against applying for the scholarship. Despite the glimmer of a chance that I might get that thousand dollars. That aside, it was fun- missing school and having an official slip of paper to warrant my absence. Compared to being subject to the cruel torture of math lectures, having to listen to an uncle talk about his life and his philosophies, anything else would have seemed fun anyway. Wednesday night and I was an absolute idiot. That said, Thursday wasn't any better. I was an accident waiting to happen, a hurricane in a shell. Thursday was ruined, all in that short 2 hours that fateful morning. I managed to fall down three times. The last and probably the hardest fall was in a sandpit. Of all places. So there I was, sand in my hair, on my clothes and in my shoes! Humiliation is something I would have to get used to if I want to live beyond the age of twenty. Friday night, as all Friday nights prove to be, was nice. It seems that Friday was the only saving grace of an otherwise lousy week. Today went pretty well too. I had my first French class in three years. Some of my classmates are more than twice my age. Should I address them by name? I am far too polite, I think. There's a gayish guy in my class. Soft spoken, tight, checkered pants, the works. It's fun, really. The library there is really nice, boasting a collection of French CDs and video tapes! I shall go there after class again. It's a lovely place to study, browse and basically act intellectual. My favourite hobby, no less.
I'm being weird tonight. I don't usually type so much nonsensical jibber. Anyhow, before this entry, I had actually spent about half an hour typing one out but due to my stupitidy, I accidently deleted everything. Now I know how Carrie Bradshaw feels when her iMAC screws up. Just that I'll never be sex columnist.
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