rachel writes in disjointed sentences which resembles a 9 year old's work. I am the daydreamer on your SBS rides- with my head knocking against window panes whenever the bus jerks. I am going to compile all my quirky little dreams into a book & sell it. And yes, I want to be a millionaire. I have been living in Singapore all 15 years of my life. Studying in a relatively strict convent school has taught me the simple lessons of life: The Art of Bitchiness (& other survival skills.) Watching the Discovery Channel calms me down.
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o Tuesday, December 18, 2001 o I hope I won't lose my voice forever. It's been more than a week already, but my voice is still as horse as ever. (And NO, it is not sexy) Oh, I also have a terrible runny nose. I hate being sick. And now I'm getting a slight headache. I can't stop popping those Hudson's eumenthol jujubes that Samuel bought me. Yummyness. This is probably the 28129321th one I'm eating. Anyway, nothing, and I mean absolutely nothing, is working for my throat! During camp, I tried Pei Pa Kao (which, surprisingly doesn't taste that bad).. I also tried what could be 5 different brands of lozenges, but to no avail. Oh sigh. I don't know what I'm going to do if I never get back my original sweet voice. Hehe. I'm supposed to stay home the whole day, to rest. Yuuck. And Zhiyong offered to give me a dinner treat...BUMMER! Yep, supposed to go out with Ruth and him today. But ooh well. :( I'll probably chill out at home today (exciting, no?) watching VCDS and what not. » 11:39 a.m. o Sunday, December 16, 2001 o Went to watch Ocean's Eleven today. Zhi Yong was messaging me half of the time.. that's how boring it was! Anyway, I didn't write much about camp in my last entries.. so. Yeah, camp was a blast! I gained so much from camp this year. Really thank God for letting me be part of the committee. Before camp, I was quite 'sian' about it, because I thought I would be like, feeling extra and everything again. But nah, on the contrary, I made lots of new friends. :) And I also got to know many of them a lot better. Especially with the camp committee members, who were really a fantastic lot to work with :) I also enjoyed worship a lot. Oh yah, I lost my voice during camp.. but that didn't stop me from worshipping God in my heart. Mmmmm.. We always slept really late.. like around 3+ and had to get up at 6+. But despite the lack of sleep, I really enjoyed myself. It was really such a wonderful experience, waking up every morning to see a bunch of friends.. and laugh at their corny jokes every 5 minutes :) Anyway, I never knew ZhiYong and Justin could be so corny. Oh well.. We all had a lot of fun.. I'm not really in the mood for writing much now.. but yah. I miss camp sooooooooo much. » 09:39 p.m. o Saturday, December 15, 2001 o Check out ThoseBrownEyes.com, cause I'm linked there! ;) » 05:47 p.m. o Saturday, December 15, 2001 o I'm back. Camp was realllly enriching for me this year. I want to be back at camp! » 05:40 p.m. o Saturday, December 8, 2001 o I hope I survive the next 7 days of camp. I don't quite know what to expect. As it is, I'm like, super inexperienced with all this camp business. Oh yeah, I have a sore throat too. Eeks! Oh well. Today I felt like a spoilt little girl. My mum decided to splurge on my sister and I. And with all honesty, I didn't even have to ask her to get me anything. In fact, I tried to persuade her not to buy some stuff. She's too nice, really. Hehe. I've got a weird mum. But yeah, I so appreciate that! :) I'm gonna be away for a week this time!! Woohoo. Although I feel really tired right now.. I'm in a great mood. I wonder why! » 11:57 p.m. o Friday, December 7, 2001 o Tis such a small, small world! Gabriel is Glenn's cousin! Amazing eh. I was just talking to him on the phone a few minutes ago. AND YEAH. I'm in a super jaunty mood right now. He's so funnnny. » 11:14 p.m. o Thursday, December 6, 2001 o The truth is, I feel so alienated from the people around me. I feel like I can't even hold proper conversations with people my age. Weird. So, I'm back. It's just probably the school holidays, but I already feel so distanced from my school friends. Then again, I hardly make the effort to keep in touch. And really, thats nothing new. You know, it's strange that people tell me 15 is the age to be! Eep. Perhaps I'm an exception eh? Whats that about 'fun' and 'excitment'? I am nothing of that. I feel like I'm not what a 15 year old girl should be. For one, as compared to my school-mates, I have far less friends. I don't know any juniors/seniors. I don't write letters. I don't talk on the phone. And yeah, I think I spend more time alone than with anyone else. Sounds strange, doesn't it? Blah. I feel dull and unimportant, almost to the extend of being a nobody. But that's me. One more thing. I absolutely love and adore Thailand. If given the chance, I would even immigrate there. It's a charming country. And well, lets just say life in Thailand is far less stressful than that in Singapore. Oh yeah. I'll post the Thailand photos up when I feel like it. » 1:24 a.m. o Friday, November 30, 2001 o Don't miss me too much, love. I'll be in Thailand till Wednesday. Afterwhich, there is camp. Mm, yep, I'm gonna be MIA for about 2 weeks. That sounds like a long time. Somehow, I feel a tinge of sadness. But it's not as if I have anything to hold me back, is there? Blah. Well then, bid me farewell won't you? :) » 05:50 p.m. o Friday, November 30, 2001 o And yes. Despite popular belief, I do not love Mark Chay, neither do I worship Pierre Png obsessively. Good looking (Pierre, not Mark) no doubt, but alas, he is but eye-candy to me. The one I shall yearn and feel for, is not some technicolor boy on tv, but a tangible someone to call my own. Shiping, I'm not directing this to you, eh. :P You should give the URL to Pris over here. He looks like a baby! I like Chubsy still! » 12:10 am o Thursday, November 29, 2001 o I can tell you, my body is yearning for some rest. It's been pretty hectic these last two days- finalizing some camp details and what not. And the fact that I had a mere 2.5 hours of sleep last night doesn't help. (not due to work, though) Well, computers do make good friends. That, I can't deny. Oh, you know, I had to throw away one of my cacti today. There was a large, gaping hole where it was once thick and fleshy. I could lift the top of it like a lid. Open, close. Open, close. Well, then the sap started oozing out and I felt my heart sink for a moment there. Tomorrow, tomorrow. And I won't be sitting here, eyes squinting, wet hair and all, typing fervently away on my dirty keyboard. » 11:55 p.m. o Wednesday, November 28, 2001 o I was at Dad's office from 9am all the way to 7pm. A productive day for me, no doubt. I worked on some camp stuff. Type here, print there.. I almost felt like a real office worker. Soon and I shall pick up telephone calls for the company. $$$$$! After work, we went for dinner at the club. It was a birthday dinner for an elderly (80 something yrs old) family friend of ours. She smells like drugstore talcum powder and has soft, ivory hair. (I feel very stressed typing this entry. Ugh. Retard.) » 10:40p.m. o Wednesday, November 28, 2001 o That's right, today we watched the Faggots 4 (read: F4, popular chinese boyband which I used to despise a great deal) show at Wei's house. Despite the (less than) mediocre acting, I dare say that we enjoyed it quite a bit. Hm. Behind our pretense of nonchalance, we are suckers for unrealistic and 'oh-so-sweet' shows. That's for me at least. Rachel aches. You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry. You float like a feather, in a beautiful world. ilu baby. » 1:03 a.m. o Tuesday, November 27, 2001 o And we sat on our own star and dreamed of the way, that I was for you and that you were for me
» 01:20 a.m. o Sunday, November 25, 2001 o This is the list of movies I would LOVE TO HAVE FOR CHRISTMAS. Yes, you heard me. I WANT THESE!! VCD, LD, video.. whatever. :) Bambi, The little mermaid, Cinderella, Sleeping beauty, Dumbo, Alice in wonderland, Mary poppins, Snow white, Peter pan, Lady and the tramp AND *PLEASE* LABYRINTH. Anyone who gets Labyrinth in any form will er, receive a special prize. Hahaa. Anyway, I used to have ALL, yes all these movies on tape. But they got mouldy after awhile and my mother threw them all away :( » 11:48 p.m. o Sunday, November 25, 2001 o My sister is downstairs watching Grease. I loved that movie, by the way. Who can resist the era of curry-pok hair styles and groovy dance moves? Oh yes, and the flamboyant bell bottoms too. » 11:10 p.m. o Friday, November 23, 2001 o No need to be jealous now. Today I realized how bad the dialogue is in Titanic. Quite hilarious actually. But darn, that movie really traumatized me when I first watched it. I was what, 10? » 09:35 p.m. o Friday, November 23, 2001 o Girls who lean too much on their boyfriends' shoulders are mostly likely to develop bad postures. Yes, this is Rachel's little wisdom nugget of the day. Don't say I didn't warn you. » 01:35 a.m. o Friday, November 23, 2001 o Someone told me that I resemble Rinoa from Final Fantasy. Compare that photo with the one I have on the right. Heh. Utter insanity, I tell you. Bread's Everything I Own is playing for the 2198309th time. I can't get over the fact that a year has passed. I feel that I have totally wasted this year. 90% of the time I felt like shit anyway. Har har. I don't know how to face next year- it just scares me beyond comprehension. Ugh. I feel like a chaotic bundle of emotions right now. I could sigh until I run out of breath. Ok, wait, maybe I'll cry until I drown myself. Har harrrrrrrrrrrr. I love being melodramatic. I should be a clown when I grow up. Tonight, my thoughts go out to you. » 1:00 a.m. o Thursday, November 22, 2001 o Why do people have to be taken away from me? Why can't I keep people, hide them in my pocket or under my blanket, and just keep them forever? Then they wouldn't have to break their promises, wouldn't have to leave me. Maybe I'll just tie him up and keep him in a box. Blah. I hate this. » 12:40 a.m. o Wednesday, November 21, 2001 o Harry Potter (the movie) is as enchanting as the book itself. :) And to show my enthusiasm, I even bought a Harry Potter shirt to wear while watching the movie. Oooo yeah. Its a fantastic movie! Everyone should read the book and go watch it! Ha. My pierced ear-hole is bleeding. Argh. Never get yourself pierced for $3.90. And make sure the person who's piercing you is not doing it for the first time. » 11:15 p.m. o Wednesday, November 21, 2001 o Why, Mark & Pris both have deliciously new layouts. This place, however, is a total humdrum- dearth of all creativity and ideas. Yes, this is where you must join me in TheBigSigh. » 11:04 a.m. o Monday, November 19, 2001 o While you are asleep, I lay awake, dreaming. » 05:40 a.m. o Monday, November 19, 2001 o Meteor shower. I didn't even see one (out of 8000). There were, however, a few pranksters that threw sparklers into the sea. At first glance, I thought, this was it. Ugh. Meteor-shower, kiss my ass! Fret not. While walking along the expressway (which is illegal on 'normal days'), I took a couple of photographs. Will post them up tomorrow. You know, I just took a bath, but I still reek of smoke and barbecued sausages. Oh yeah. At the beach just now, I overheard this girl asking her friend, "Would you rather have one big nostril or three nostrils?" How baffling. » 03:20 a.m. o Saturday, November 17, 2001 o I feel such a sense of deja vu as I watch my parents reprimand my sister. Now I know how much I have hurt them in the past. It is so unworth it, and I'm glad I'm (currently) out of that stage. I can't take my mind off ravioli. If only pasta wasn't so fattening. I feel like I could cut off slabs of fat from my body right now. Rip rip rip » 11:20 p.m. o Friday, November 16, 2001 o Why am I always passionate about the wrong things? This is just another case of 'misplaced priorities'. (But what is new?) By now, it is a familiar term- a constant nag, a slap in the face.
"obviously, doctor, you have never been a 13 year old girl" I obsess over strangers, familiar sights and sounds, the labyrinth of human minds. To hear, to see, to smell, to taste, to touch. It is these dulcet sensations, minute as they seem, that ingrain themselves in my impressionable, teenage mind. (You see, I could never do the same with school.) » 11:15 p.m. o Thursday, November 15, 2001 o "Reality makes you see the beauty of dreams." Thanks Sam. » 12:15 a.m. o Wednesday, November 14, 2001 o Should have brought the digicam with me today. Walked past This Fashion and saw a t-shirt with the words: Rage Against the Machine and a picture of a girl. Wow. I guess Lians don't fancy techno as much anymore, huh? Lol. » 12:20 a.m. o Wednesday, November 14, 2001 o Bought my Miss Selfridge wallet, only to find a prettier (albeit more expensive) one at Roxy. But thats okay, really. Shopping is highly addictive, and this is especially bad when you don't even earn your own money. Yes, I feel like a bum. A good for nothing. Useless rubbish. Ok. Thats enough rachel-insults to make your day, and also to last me a lifetime. Haha. I watched BluePlanet today! This episode featured deep sea creatures- that really looked like monsters straight out from a sci-fic movie to me. It is pretty frightening, when one thinks of what might be out there. Afterall, scientists have only explored a mere 1% of the mysterious 'under-world'. Which is, thousands of metres below the surface, where sunlight is impossible to penetrate through, and the pressure is too high for normal creatures to thrive. Yet, there are over 500 species and what could be millions and millions of living organisms there. It really puzzles me how people can deny that there is a God, when it is so evident in these beautifully formed creatures. » 12:00 a.m.
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