o Tuesday, January 15, 2002 o

Benighted we lay; the glow of stars further illuminating our growing distance. Beneath the sheets, we are separate, as vagabonds wasted after a day's journey.

I love to write, it makes me feel better.

» 10:15 p.m.

o Monday, January 14, 2002 o

I'm such a bad, bad girl! Firstly, I had an enormous lunch at Sizzler's, complete with 2, yes 2 generous scoops of chocolate ice-creams, topped with caramel syrup and chocolate chips. And although it's a Monday, and I have a full school week ahead, we decided to go visit the hair saloon. Pampered myself with a trim and a nice head/neck massage. Almost fell asleep there. After that, we went shopping. And I bought myself another lip gloss to add to my collection! Woohoo! I rule. Couldn't resist, it was on 50% sale. And it smells like cotton candy. Haha, I am suuch a girl. But I can still kick some serious ass, so shut up about the bimbo bit.

Oh and surprise, surprise .. guess who hasn't revised for the chinese and chemistry tests, and even conveniently skipped tuition class today? :)

» 09:57 p.m.

o Saturday, January 12, 2002 o

"I have nothing much to say, except that I adore you."
"Adore implies a distace doesn't it?"

And so wraps up another Saturday.

» 11:43 p.m.

o Friday, January 11, 2002 o

"the boring sequel of past lovers (and other short stories)" One day I'll write that book. As for now, I'll lay contented in my fantasies. The night is young, but my eyes droop with fatigue. Pity.

» 10:32 p.m.

o Friday, January 11, 2002 o

My limbs are aching like that of an old lady's..soft, gentle, and in an almost comforting way. It is a fine thing, to be able to feel alive and healthy, especially so in my case! It is the simple feeling of blood rushing through my veins, or of being drenched in pespiration, and even to the feeling of aching muscles behind taut skin.

I am enjoying every bit of the cool night air. Love it! :) In fact, I'm listening to Coldplay right now, while conjuring up images of Chris Martin crooning to me. I think he has such a lovely, romantic voice. my heart is yours, see that i hold on too.. Sometimes I wish I had the flair for writing. But sadly, I do not. Mine is a feeble attempt of awkward and unpolished sentences.. most of which make no sense at all. Sad huh.

» 9:37 p.m.

o Thursday, January 10, 2002 o

As of late, I've been having this insatiable craving for chocolates! Right now, as I type, I'm devouring my second caramel truffle. This stuff is so good- it literally melts in my mouth, leaving a rich and luscious taste. I'm in chocolate heaven baby! ;)

Spent all my pocket money on books this afternoon. There was a mini book sale going on, and I simply couldn't resist! Well. Today I had a really thought-provoking conversation with a close friend. She has these really big (and not as far-fetched as you think) plans to become a millionaire by the age of 30. One of it includes striving really hard this year, in order to achieve exceptional results in the O levels. No, her goals do not embarrass or in comparison, put mine to shame. But let's just say that we're probably heading towards really different paths. I mean, I just want to lead a contented and happy life- a comfortable family, a stable job. And with all honesty, that's what I truly want! (for now anyway) I want to follow my dreams, do something I am really passionate about, and not a mundane 9-5 job that might bring in the cash, but would not bring me my deserved happiness. Anyhow, I think I said too much today. I'm thinking if I should reach for (yet) another chocolate. ME <3 CHOCS!

» 5:20 p.m.

o Monday, January 7, 2002 o

Once again, I find myself searching for words to express how I feel. There is an inexplicable desire in me to write, even till the intimate crevasses of my mind are exposed. But I shall do no such thing. Not tonight and not here anyway.

» 11:03 p.m.

o Friday, January 4, 2002 o

New photos up under visuals. Today I finally went to see the doctor. I've been having problems with my throat ever since camp! Heh. But this morning it was worse, because I had gastric pains. Oh well. Dad reckons I have a weak immunity system. I think so too.

» 11:54 p.m.

o Friday, January 4, 2002 o

I just found out that I'm currently ranked in RiceBowl's top 100 list! I'm placed in the 31st position. Who would have thought? :) Certainly am pleased.

The other night, I watched Dragon: The Bruce Lee Story. It was FANASTIC! Oh and Jason Scott Lee is SO good looking. His body is like.. *nosebleed* Haha! It's true. He really is pretty yummy. :)

I swear he looks better in Dragon though.

» 10:38 a.m.

o Wednesday, January 2, 2002 o

Whoa. I'm back from the nunnery, or 'lesbian utopia' as Justin would say. Today we did goal setting, mission statements and our vision for the school. And as I expected, none of the holiday homework was collected. Haha!

» 04:44 p.m.

o Tuesday, January 1, 2002 o

When the night seems so long (throw your hands to the sky)
You can sing a new song (wipe the tears from your eyes)
When you're weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
And calm the storm inside

Hallelujah.

Why do I feel so lousy? It's the New Year!

» 03:18 a.m.

o Monday, December 31, 2001 o

Watched 2 vcds last night at Justin's place. It was supposed to be some camp comm sleepover 'party', but few turned up. Heh. Anyway, it's the last day of 2001.

Wow. Wonder if anything exciting will happen tonight. Then again, I shouldn't expect too much.

» 05:25 p.m.

o Sunday, December 30, 2001 o

Yesterday, I went to watch Lord of The Rings with Bea. For dinner, I was at Elder Reggie's, where we held out camp comm debrief and had a fantastic dinner. Hehe. Today, I met up with the other small group leaders and Justin for lunch at Fish & Cos! After that was YF.. and following which, we went to Aunty Irene's house for yet another yummlicious dinner. Haha!

I've been fed really well for the past few meals. :) I'm not complaining though. Oh, it's so funny.. I had a really weird dream, two nights before. Its so very strange and unexpected, but well, I can't deny that it was also very pleasant. Hmm, shan't let you indulge in its details.. so guess on! :)

» 12:17 am

o Wednesday, December 26, 2001 o

I used to 'enjoy' being alone, and spending the day in solitude used to be such a common occurence. But right now, I feel downright uncomfortable and unfamiliar with myself. Perhaps it's because recently, I've been spending most of my time with my family and friends. Maybe I'm just helplessly dependant on people and things to make me happy. That's not a bad thing, is it?

Nostalgia always seems to seep it's way through on an occasion such as this. It does not pain me the way it did, but memories so fragile are simply impossible to ignore. And now, I am reduced to sitting here, staring emptily at the screen before me.

All's not lost. Apart from my sudden and strange release of emotions, I am actually a happy and contented person. And this is what it should be, anyway. I hope such days are here to stay. Days when I can smile, simply because it's a lovely day. Yes, a strange, incomprehensible sort of saccharine sweetness. And it grips me, caresses my fears. And now I know, in the midst of the drizzle or the storms that might come forth, I know that I have a faith that will guide me through.

And things aren't as bad as they seem. :)

On a very much lighter note, the cookies were a (huge) success! We were told that they were "really yummy" and "comparable to Mrs Fields". I'm skeptical though. Most of them were soft by the time they reached their hands. Received a few heartfelt and encouraging Christmas cards, as well as a couple of really nice presents too. I think I'm feeling the afterglow of Christmas right now. Heh.

» 2:20 p.m.

o Tuesday, December 25, 2001 o

Christmas started off on a very different and ironic note. Anyhow. Went carolling last night and it was great! Stayed over at Vernon's (aka the gigantic mansion) place and it was tres fun as well. Been busy baking and wrapping chocolate chip cookies too! As you can tell, it's a hectic (but great) Christmas.

SO. Here's wishing all of you a blessed and merry christmas. :)

» 12:33 a.m.

o Monday, December 24, 2001 o

Feeling very neutral right now. I can choose to be Little Miss Sunshine or teenage angst queen. Am almost torn apart. Well. It's best not to think too much. Don't drown!

» 04:33 p.m.

o Saturday, December 22, 2001 o

:)

» 11:32 p.m.

o Thursday, December 20, 2001 o

I came across this quote today.
"Man cannot be content till he praises God, because He made us in Himself and our hearts find no peace until they rest in Him."

I think that's very true. Anyway, I smell dinner! Later.

» 07:23 p.m.

o Wednesday, December 19, 2001 o

- The 3 Brandons that I know are all very good looking. If I have a son (I hope not), that shall be his name.
- Whoever you are, I'm jealous. Such beautiful writing never cease to amaze.
- I think I look real pretty with a thermometer in my mouth.
- Even prettier when I have a flu.

That's all I have to say for now.

» 11:20 p.m.

o Wednesday, December 19, 2001 o

I have a fever, and it's making me feel like a total retard. My entire body is aching. I'm in need of a back rub! By the way, during camp I realized that I could give a really good back rub! :) I received a few compliments, mind you..

Went to Boon's house to do homework today. It's not my fault that I wasn't as productive as everyone else. I'm sick. I need rest. As simple as that. Oh but today was good too. I managed to close 2 auctions! And I'll be getting $16 soon. I also received a letter today. Short and simple, but sweet enough. :) Merci beaucoup!

» 9:39 p.m.

o Tuesday, December 18, 2001 o

Decided to go for dinner with Zhiyong and Ruth. Hehe, couldn't resist the temptation of going out. We had Jap food, sushi and udon. Couldn't taste much of my food though. Sigh. After that, they continued their Christmas shopping. Oh and I received my first Christmas pressie too! :) He bought both Ruth and I lovely necklaces. Mine has a orange star-shaped pendant. Its really really really pretty and I love it loads. :)

Anyway, he bothered to walk me home. Which is like, totally unheard of nowadays. Oh well, both my parents love him a lot. Haha. I think I'm really fortunate to have such good friends at church. :) Hmm. We're having cake at home now. I can't taste anything. Blah.

» 11:20 p.m.